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My first day at SPC [27 Aug 2008|10:18pm] My first day went considerably well, but it had and will continue to have its downs. I have a lot of breaks in between my three-day eight-hour schedule, and though they do go by eventually, it's only when I'm preoccupied with eating or talking or studying does it pass relatively quickly. I think I'm beginning to hate my Elementary Tagalog class because it's "conducted exclusively in Tagalog" and the cultural/language barrier between the instructor and the students is petrifying. She doesn't understand what we don't understand, and vice versa. I'm thinking of dropping the class, but I'm a little interested in the implications behind the goal. Having the class conducted exclusively in Tagalog means that I'm being pretty much ejected into a culture I don't know (even though it technically is mine), and if I'm receptive, I'll learn a lot . . . but if I'm not, I'll learn very little or close to nothing. It's as though I've already geared myself up to reject it, though, and that's the hard part. My favorite class -- but not my favorite time of day -- is my American Sign Language course. I don't like the time of day because it's after my last two hour break, and I learned that I get sleepy and distracted during it even if I keep my mind busy. Waking up before nine in the morning while having your brain constantly switched on does that to you, I guess. But I'm excited for the class because it's so enriching. There are a lot more people in that class than I expected, too. I especially like the instructor because he's the first male feminist I've seen, and well, that is very interesting. When we write papers, he likes us to be aware of how we address the audience, and to be inclusive. He's requiring that we participate in at least one event that takes place in deaf culture. I find that so invasive and scary, but at the same time . . . I can't help but be attracted to the notion. He's married to Mary Sue, one of the leaders of the campus ministry, which is awesome. I think I'll be joining it one day, or at least once I'm comfortably settled in. I'm a bit troubled because I can't access my History course Blackboard account, but I emailed Father Wrynn and hopefully he'll look into it. I could always ask him tomorrow. I got all my books, which is a relief. Except not entirely, because I have to carry so many for the course of three days and they're bulky and heavy. I haven't met a lot of people yet; the ones I have are the ones I've met/talked to previously, and the ones Diandra introduced me to, I've probably already forgotten their names . . . But it's only the first day, and to its credit, it went very well, so I can't really complain. I did my homework already -- which wasn't homework, really. I just took notes on the things I learned in class, with the exception of the vocabulary words from my Tagalog class because I have no idea what some of those words mean and Mrs. Reyes is so freaking indistinct! My head pulses in that class! You have no idea -- and regretfully, I had no idea my language was so difficult to wrap my mind around. Maybe it's because it's not used to being challenged in that way, but . . . Eh! comment?

[26 Aug 2008|02:33pm] He's burning with embarrassment and shame, and while it's still hot, he turns around and brands someone else with it. I hate my grandfather. comment?

[27 Jul 2008|05:14pm] "Excuse me, ma'am!" I blink and look up from the mirror. The saleswoman nods at the skirt I've slid over my pants in a half-assed attempt at trying it on. She crosses her arms to her chest and looks down her nose at me. "That's a dress." I blink again, slack-jawed this time. "Uh. Really?" "Yes." She glares, and stabs the air with her finger. "And the fitting rooms are back there." But . . . it's so short. comment?

[18 Jul 2008|09:19pm] Barbie gets leather and fishnets. 1 ♥ comment?

I like to pretend I'm funny [15 Jul 2008|12:59am] hol e toledo: i wish i was a linguist with a death wish in 1969 so i could speak russian in front of a soldier and get shot... it'd be an exciting way to die, people thinking i was a spy! Sportliebhaber71: hahahaha Sportliebhaber71: true enough Sportliebhaber71: how about trying to climb over the berlin wall?? hol e toledo: yes, yes, that sounds exciting too Sportliebhaber71: that would be my preference hol e toledo: orrrr climb the berlin wall when hasselhoff is singing... i'm pretty sure i'd die under those circumstances too hol e toledo: i'd just drop like a fly Sportliebhaber71: no i would kill him forst Sportliebhaber71: first hol e toledo: HAHA Sportliebhaber71: then collect a medal from the united nations hol e toledo: they'd probably give it to you gladly lol Sportliebhaber71: indeed Sportliebhaber71: and no jury would convict me hol e toledo: "congratulations on "hoff-ing" the hassel!" hol e toledo: hahahah Sportliebhaber71: indeed! hol e toledo: i crack myself up Sportliebhaber71: hahahaah Sportliebhaber71: ok bedtime for me though hol e toledo: get it? offing the hassle... hol e toledo: k gnite! Sportliebhaber71: yes offing the hassel hol e toledo: hahahah Sportliebhaber71: *mutters in German* hol e toledo: LOL comment?

absurd censorship [11 Jul 2008|12:36am] (  . . .  ) 1 ♥ comment?

[09 Jul 2008|02:13am] I pierced my nose. :o comment?

Hip rolling tutorial [07 Jul 2008|07:57pm] God, it looks pretty, but ouch... Not to mention it puts a lot of strain on my knees, and that scares me 'cause they're not my best trait anymore. comment?

[06 Jul 2008|10:11pm] ( Angie, you're beautiful, yeah . . .  ) I have grown way too attached to this plant. comment?

[06 Jul 2008|02:04pm] I may have killed my plant. I knew this would happen. I decided to move Angie to another pot because her roots are outgrowing its original. Everything was going fine until I read a website that said I should soak Angie -- newly transferred -- and her pot in a bucket of water to irrigate the roots and settle the old soil and the new potting mix. I didn't have a bucket, so I used a wok. I checked on Angie a little over a half an hour later to find her a little more waterlogged than I'd've liked. After freaking out and then draining her a little, I checked on handy ol' Google for some tips on how to save overwatered plants. The site told me to take her out of the pot and rest her on a clump of paper towels and pat her down, and leave her out overnight or for at least twelve hours before returning her to her container. I'm worried because the root ball is really, really, really heavy, and that means that her roots could very possibly be oversaturated. I may or may not have saved her from possible root rot. It's too soon to tell. So it's just a waiting game now. Damn it. 3 ♥ comment?

[04 Jul 2008|08:52pm] Hall & Oates (You Make My Dreams) song of the moment! :) Stargate Atlantis SG-1 is my new Scrubs. I had the 1994 movie on VHS lying around the house somewhere but when I finally got to it, I found it all melty... It's too bad, Kurt Russell was so attractive when he was younger. I think I liked him especially in The Thing. :3 SGA SG-1 is a spinoff series of the movie, so sometimes there are things that I don't get, but they make it clearer as I watch more episodes. I found all (or most?) of 'em here! And they're all direct link too, so I don't have to wait for more seeders like when I tried to download them via Bit Torrent. That turned out to be a bust 'cause it took more than a week to download, and by the time it finished, it only had three of the episodes from the first season... But hey, at least it got me started. My mom just left for Brooklyn because Ahmed somehow got two flat tires and he's too cheap to get it towed with his own cash. Maybe he should just stay away from everything that has an engine, because whenever he's in close proximity, they just get damaged... comment?

[23 Jun 2008|09:27am] Oh my God. George Carlin died. :( 1 ♥ comment?

[21 Jun 2008|08:29am] Dude, I don't care how good this shit works. I just don't see results and I'm not waiting for four frantic days or weeks or months to find out. If anything, these side effects make me want to commit myself even more. But I'm really bummed out. I thought I researched all there was to be researched, but nothing compared to trying it out for real. The results sound really good, but I'm finding trouble in waiting a week or more of physical/emotional discomfiture just to see them. I feel like I wasted so much money. Even though the medication was covered by the insurance, it was money that could have been used for something more beneficial. Something keeps telling me that I'm being irrational and that good things happen to those who are patient, but I find no comfort in willingly putting myself through all this shit. It's masochistic and scary as hell. This is the alteration of the biochemical structure of my brain we're talking about, and shit, I really feel it happening. comment?

[20 Jun 2008|05:36pm] I started my dose of Lexapro today, and the side effects are troublesome. I'm not sure if I was sweating a lot due to the fact that I was nervous about taking it, but I did seem to be perspiring more than normal. I became really lethargic and drowsy and so I took a nap, but I woke up with my heart hammering in my chest and a really jittery, crawly feeling, and I noticed that it wasn't really a sound nap considering I was clenching my jaw the whole time through. I hope these side effects don't last too long because they are so uncomfortable. I tried reading to take my mind off of them, but I couldn't stay focused with so much unnecessary energy and anxiety. I don't think it helped much that I've been reading reviews this entire time considering a lot of people have had a lot of negative things to say about it. There've been a spectrum of complaints, such as but not limited to dizziness, drowsiness, digestive problems, weight gain, short term memory loss, insomnia, and, uh, symptoms identical to being on ecstasy. God, I hope all this unnecessary suffering is worth it. comment?

[10 Jun 2008|09:11pm] [ music | Hall & Oates - Adult Education ] I've been trying really hard lately to fight temptation, which seems to get increasingly appetizing especially in the face of boredom. I think I'm doing a good job, just so long as the object of my temptation keeps up the good work in being passive aggressive, which is exactly what I'm doing. So, if we're both being passive aggressive, then there's a good chance that nothing will come out of it! Work is drab, as work usually gets. I hate working. It doesn't even matter where I work -- at some point, I'll have a good time, but at some point, I'll also come to hate it. It's taking four people to figure out a new schedule because we're trying to build it around the new people, and this is including Mapett and myself. There's fourteen of us in total, and to make matters worse, we're all on board for the summer. This, unequivocally, is the result of bad management, but I'm sure anyone would suffer this if they worked three back-breaking jobs and had an unequal amount of time to spend on each one of them. It seems that if we were to break hours evenly between all fourteen of us, each would work an average of 3.5 hours a week. The eagle lands every two, so that means we'd all be making a measly $50.05 (before taxes; after would probably be around $44) each. Meh. Money's money, and after some thinking, I don't really feel like spending it, anyway. Of course, I'm at liberty to change my mind about this, but I'm feeling a little stingy with my money lately. But it's justifiable -- I'm trying to save up. I'm making like a squirrel and burying it all away, except it's likely that I won't forget about it seeing how it's in the bank accounts and all. Hopefully someone comes to an affordable conclusion with what is turning out to be this scheduling fiasco, because I sure as hell ain't touching it. Yesterday, I noticed that the callouses on my feet double as non-slip shower pads. Gross. Jeez, it's windy. My house is shaking. I started working out today 'cause I'm feeling jiggly in all the wrong places. Hehehe, I've totally been binging on Hall & Oates these past two weeks... Hall & Oates - Adult Education comment?

[10 Jun 2008|06:08pm] Man, I tried doing those preliminary exercises for belly rolls and it burns. I had no idea I had those muscles. XD 7 ♥ comment?

[06 Jun 2008|10:17pm] June is turning out to be a really busy month. I'm getting used to working, and on top of that, I've fit in most of my doctors' appointments this month. It's all making my head spin, and my panic attacks are getting worse. I feel like I'm drowning. I've had this one panic attack since three this afternoon, and I tried to take a nap, but I woke up sweating... Argh. 4 ♥ comment?

[05 Jun 2008|12:17pm] I'm so addicted to Hall & Oates' Out of Touch. XD comment?

I'm all registered for classes! [03 Jun 2008|02:53pm] Monday, Wednesday, Thursday- Western Tradition (9:00-9:50AM) Elementary Tagalog (10:00-10:50AM) Perspectives on Politics (1:00-1:50PM) American Sign Language (4:00-4:50PM) Tuesday, Friday- Demographic Trends & Urban Changes (11:00AM-12:15PM) I figured I might as well learn my native language, heh. And I'm thinking of either going into sociology and/or politics or speech pathology. I'm undecided for now, so I'm just looking into these classes. They're not random for nothing. (Okay, I just thought ASL might be cool.) comment?

I has two new favorite b33rs. :D [02 Jun 2008|10:36pm] Franziskaner is amazing, and Dos Equis XX is a close second. ( I had an AWESOME weekend. ) comment?

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